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Let happiness come more fiercely — written for those fellow men who are losing faith in love. I have known Xiao Mùchóng for almost two years now, and this is the first time I am sharing my personal emotional story publicly. The many entomology enthusiasts have provided me with tremendous support and assistance, both in my studies and in my daily life. First and foremost, I would like to thank those who generously share their personal experiences on the forum and go to great lengths to provide various resources; it is because of them that I can enjoy the good life I have today ； Below, I would like to share my emotional story with you all, in an effort to provide some encouragement for those entomologists who are still striving on the path to happiness. In my sophomore year, I had my first love; it was a naive and wonderful relationship. After graduation, we went to different places and broke up. Since then, I’ve been in a low mood and have no interest in pursuing relationships. I feel that people are becoming more practical, and that relationships are not as pure as they were in college; life just feels meaningless. Later, I started my postgraduate studies, and my mental state improved a bit; I also became more confident. Therefore, I began to long for love again. Due to my field of specialization, there was only one girl in the class (no, she should be called a woman, as she was already married and a part-time graduate student); coupled with her full dedication to her studies, she has remained emotionally unattached. After graduation, I started working at a military research institute; although the salary was low, it was stable. Like most single students, the first thing to do once they have a stable job is to find a partner. Yet, this huge research institute has failed to find a woman it likes. Firstly, there are few women here, and even fewer who are of appropriate age; Secondly, the few girls who are passable are already taken. Actually, my demands aren’t high either, as my own qualifications are average. My appearance is given by my parents; it’s not my fault that I’m not good-looking, but I keep working on improving myself. To put it exaggeratively, my first love and I could be considered the perfect example of \"flowers placed on cow dung\" – she was the representative of her class, while my only advantage was that I served as the head of the youth league organization; she worked under me, which gave her an advantage due to her close proximity to me. It was she who proposed breaking up at graduation; feeling that I had no inherent advantages, I was powerless to keep her, so we had to go our separate ways ； For the sake of making a living, I had no choice but to pursue further studies in order to improve my knowledge level a bit; yet in reality there was little improvement, and to some extent I felt I had wasted my time. The only thing that gave me some comfort was having produced three useless SCI papers. In my free time, some colleagues have actually offered to help me introduce me to some older women. I personally don’t agree with dating as a way to get to know women, because it’s too direct and can easily lead to awkward situations. Even if I had the audacity that no one could imagine, I still couldn’t accept such a method; I’m afraid it would be awkward to face my colleagues in the event that nothing is agreed upon. But there’s nothing to do about it; most men still need to find a woman. With my very limited circle of acquaintances, the first thing that came to mind was the internet. Looking at the “Friends Who Are Insects Lovers” section on the Little Wood Insect forum, it’s clear that many people there have already started making arrangements for their lifelong partnerships; some are even helping their friends with this, but these posts always get a lot of attention as soon as they are posted. Personally, I think the chances of achieving happiness through posting in this way are very slim, as everyone adopts a wait-and-see attitude and keeps their hearts tightly closed. Leaving just a few words of blessing shows very little sincerity. In fact, happiness often comes in a way that surprises you. Often, there are also many people who, after striving hard for a long time, find themselves still stuck in the same place. And the lucky ones always find their love unintentionally. Someone once said that online relationships are basically difficult to succeed, and there are even dedicated threads exploring the reasons why such relationships fail. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with online dating, as long as you use the internet properly. Actually, it’s not that I firmly believe in the internet; I just think that any method necessary to achieve one’s own happiness is worth trying. After seeing that there was no hope of finding love on the Muchong forum, I stumbled upon a well-known dating website. Here, I found hope. After completing the registration process, I wrote my own love declaration. Then they start looking for a suitable partner; I believe many people have tried to do this. Amidst the vast crowd, I found a girl with the online nickname “**Hua**”. They have a pleasant appearance; they’re my type. I found it strange why such a name was chosen. People in the field of research like to delve deeply into anything they don’t understand. After looking up relevant information, I discovered that **this flower is also known as the hero flower, and it serves as a raw material for certain products**. **It is native to the mountainous regions of eastern Mediterranean and places such as Asia Minor and Egypt. At the beginning of our era, it was introduced to Egypt from the Greek and Mesopotamian plains; in ancient Egypt, it was known as the “divine flower”. Its meanings as a flower symbolize: hope, love that hurts her, comfort, forgetting first love, patience, nobility, and beauty. Looking at these descriptions, I guess she might have suffered emotional hurt or been going through a tough time before coming here; on the other hand, it also shows that she is very beautiful. Her certain self-introductions also show that my guess is not unfounded. She writes that her main personality traits include \"being filial is my virtue, loving someone despite their flaws, having the qualities of a good wife and mother, being a cute and playful girlfriend, and liking small animals.\" Overall, these are all traits I like; I feel that her personality suits me well. In this way, she (let’s call her SN) – a beautiful and generous girl from an ethnic minority – deeply captivated me. At first, I just greeted her casually, thinking that if she got in touch with me, I would have a chance. I’m naturally a rather passive person, and I’m afraid that others might not have time to pay attention to me, so I dare not speak too much. I didn’t expect that so many days passed with no news at all. So, I sent her two more text messages inviting her to be friends, but still got no response. I’m afraid she didn’t see the email I sent her, or that she gets so many messages that she simply paid no attention to mine, after all, she’s a beautiful and talented person. It turned out later that she logged in every day, so she had already read my messages; she just didn’t reply to me. It’s no wonder; after all, it looks so ugly at first glance. I didn’t give up later on; I sent her another funny story to make her happy, and she actually replied to me, though it was just two words: “Haha”. This time I saw hope, even though it was just those two words. My reply to her was, “A single character is worth a fortune!” I’m glad to receive your reply.” Here, I would like to remind men who are looking for a partner online to pay close attention to the sincerity in their approach. They need to consistently show the genuine commitment they have for finding a partner, especially those who are not tall like me and are still a long way from being considered handsome. Actually, I’ve always imagined that it would be great if I were Beckham; then I wouldn’t have to go through all this trouble, nor would I have to worry every day about choosing which beautiful woman to go out with. Hehe... Of course, that’s impossible. Later, my efforts paid off and I got her QQ number, which was like finding a treasure to me. The Olympic song is really well sung – “With courage, miracles happen!” ”With QQ, there is great hope; there’s no need to stay on that website waiting anxiously for letters anymore. Also, it’s possible to see her space, and to be fully aware of everything she does. She really is straightforward; everything shows on her face. Of course, I hadn’t met her at that time yet. I could tell from her logs that she is such a person. She wrote a lot of her true experiences and insights on her blog, which made it much easier for me to get to know her. After adding her on QQ, I rarely saw her online. Worried that she might have hidden herself, I sent her many messages. If this continues like this every day for a week, there will be no response. Until one day (August 15, 2008), she logged on; I exchanged a few casual words with her, and then we went our separate ways. I didn’t expect it to be this cold! Three more days passed, and on the evening of the 18th, she seemed more excited than in the previous days; this time I talked to her for a longer period of time. SN said she has a boyfriend now and they’re in a cold war; I was surprised. I asked her why she still used online dating, and she remained silent. By this point, my mood had become much calmer, because I felt that since she already had a boyfriend, I could only wish them well and not get in the way. I told her, “Just because you have a boyfriend doesn’t mean it will stop me from being your fan.” ”At that moment, she replied with a very classic and inspiring statement: \"Chase what you like; I like men who are brave.\" ”This really confused me; could it be some online scam? I kept asking myself over and over again. Looking at the entries in her blog, along with those clear and charming eyes of hers, I don’t think she’s that kind of person. It is said that the eyes are the windows to the soul, and her bright and expressive gaze clearly indicates that she is a likable, well-behaved girl. I actually no longer have any sense of caution. I took the opportunity to talk with her about topics related to men and women, and she seemed quite interested. I mostly share her views, and we can find common ground on many topics. This also confirms my initial thought that my personality and hers are very compatible. Once, I met SN online; she said she was shopping on Taobao and told me that Alipay was really troublesome, asking if I could help her. I agreed without hesitation. I suggest using my Alipay directly, as I happen to have it and it’s convenient for making payments. She said she was sorry, and after I paid after she had chosen the items, she repeatedly emphasized that she would definitely return the money to me. They also sent me their phone number and address, and provided me with good reasons to meet her. Perhaps it was fate’s arrangement; everything happened so naturally. But strangely, that crappy delivery company was extremely inefficient; I had to call and urge them several times before the items were delivered to her, which finally put my mind at ease. During those days of following up on the delivery, I was feeling anxious – why create so many problems for me? Maybe it’s true that good things take time! On August 26th, she told me that she had broken up with her boyfriend; she said she was finally free, and I was happy for her – though actually I was happy for myself. This is the turning point of the story, and the best time for us to begin smoothly. I said I didn’t want to know about her past; I wanted her to forget her pain and recover from the unhappiness of the past. She agreed in silence. On August 30th, we finally met up and had lunch at a tea house. She seems to be in great spirits, always smiling and very charming. We talked like long-lost friends, having a wonderful conversation. I completely opened my heart and basically accepted her. And that’s how, by around September 5th, we had met four times, and each time it felt better than the last. September 5th will be our eternal anniversary, the day when I and she held hands by chance. It took 20 days in total from meeting to getting together. Actually, it’s not fast either; it feels like nothing can stop it once it arrives. What do men expect from the women they love? Height, appearance, abilities, family background, personality? Maybe both are possible. But in reality, it’s a bit absurd to look for a perfect woman who possesses all these advantages. Since ancient times, the ideal wife in a man’s dreams has been defined as a woman who is both beautiful and intelligent, capable of handling both household affairs and cooking. I’m a typical perfectionist; she was already perfect in my eyes, which is why I chose her. I have always believed that there is no love in this world without a reason. A man is finally willing to give up the freedom of his ring finger and happily lead a woman down the red carpet – surely this woman has some appealing qualities that make her worthy of his deep appreciation. Therefore, one must believe that those who are married to will all be the best. At this point, our love story can come to an end. It would take a lifetime to write it out in its entirety, and I don’t want to waste everyone’s time by keeping them interested in my life, so I’ll put pen to paper here. In real life, our happy relationship has just begun, and I am firmly convinced that we have a bright future together.