13 Little-Known Forms of Loneliness Among People Born in the 1980s
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1. Walking alone on the streets, watching the crowded crowd, those smiling faces—all of them belong to someone else. You’re just a passerby; you can take nothing with you, nor can you leave anything behind. No matter how lively or bustling it is, it only emphasizes your loneliness. Among the crowd, you raise your head in silence, but can’t find a single familiar face...2. curled up in bed, unable to sleep, with strange thoughts swirling in your mind. The darkness surrounds you like a huge spiderweb. Under the thick blanket, you feel cold. You take out your phone from under the pillow, but don’t know who to call, so you put it back down reluctantly. You pull your head into the blanket and hug your knees tightly, like a child trying to keep warm that way...
3. You hate certain people, certain things, even this world itself. You keep wondering why it has to be you—who has to bear all the pain. You just want to be an ordinary child, to enjoy a normal childhood, go to school, find a job, fall in love... But all these ordinary things are so difficult for you. It seems like there are eyes watching you from behind, with a mocking smile. Then they shake their heads and walk away...
4. Staring at the computer, the coffee beside you has cooled down. Soft music plays through the headphones. It’s already early morning. You don’t know when this happened; it’s as if you’re an animal hiding in its den, not wanting to come out. You’ve started to fear the sunlight outside, hate going out, and feel that those people outside are even less friendly than your cold computer. Sometimes, the virtual world is indeed more beautiful than the real one...
5. Leaning against the window, you gaze quietly at this unfamiliar city through the light rain. You don’t know how long you’ll stay here, who you’ll meet, or what memories you’ll make. You light a cigarette; surrounded by smoke, you close your eyes and enjoy the silence. Let bygones be bygones. From now on, you must learn to get to know strangers, do strange things, and live a strange life... Alone in a foreign land...
6. You’re used to walking alone down the school corridors, with your hands in your pockets, without any goal or destination. You just keep walking, step by step, until you’re exhausted. You learn to think alone during these moments, trying to solve problems. Whether your conclusions are right or wrong, it no longer matters. You look at the busy playground and a faint smile appears on your lips. In the sunset, your shadow stretches long...
7. In your dreams, you see her/him leaving, and you wake up crying. Looking at the empty room, you quietly walk over to the sink. Seeing your pale and haggard face in the mirror, you burst into tears instantly...
8. You wake up in the morning; the house is empty. You make yourself a cup of milk, sit on the sofa on the balcony, breathing in the warm steam, and casually flip through the thick book beside you. The winter sun shines softly and warmly on you. Everything around is quiet and peaceful. Before you know it, you fall asleep again, snoring softly like a lazy cat...
9. You’re lost in memories, unwilling to wake up. When you remember spending time with friends, you smile slightly. When you recall some embarrassing moments, your face turns red. When you think of those helpless situations, you sigh softly. When you think of her, you bite your lower lip tightly. You’re afraid... you might start crying...
10. You order a beer at the bar, listening to the loud music, watching the people dancing in the dance floor. You remain expressionless. The cold beer cools down as it goes down your throat. You groan softly... Then, to the dazzling lights, you tap your feet gently. Your back at the bar looks like a stone statue...
11. Learn to stop crying, learn to hide your emotions. They say you’re heartless, but you just smile. You know there’s no need to try to make others understand you. Those who know me share my worries; those who don’t know me don’t understand my needs. Tears won’t solve any problems; they only cause trouble. There are many things that can move us, but we shouldn’t cry. Because if we let our emotions run free, we might end up crying uncontrollably...
12. You attend a party, drink a lot of alcohol, but never get drunk. You stare at the world with narrowed eyes—strange and colorful. You tell yourself that you like this feeling. You go to the sink by yourself, splash some cold water on your face, and then smile foolishly at your reflection. After getting drunk... the world seems so beautiful...
13. You silently fall in love with her/him, but dare not spoil this feeling. You keep it hidden, no matter how arrogant she is, no matter how unreasonable she behaves, no matter how many times she makes you angry. You always give in to her. You know you can’t give her anything right now. You know reality is crueler than love. You know you’ll only be worthy of loving her when you can give her what she wants... Finally, when you gather the courage to go find her, to search every place where she might be, hoping to explain everything to her, you find that there’s already someone who can make her happy. There are many reasons why she doesn’t love him anymore... and the reasons why she loved him... no longer exist……