Tell your story - the world is not what I thought it was

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The thing that worried and scared me the most finally happened. . . . . There was a time when I had doubts about whether I could live a less miserable life in this cruel reality, and I also thought about what I would do if I lost my job. However, it all happened in the end. Speaking of the general trend of the world, it turns out to be TMD energy conservation and emission reduction! During the ten years of China's crazy industrialization, I was just a young kid studying in school and had no chance to take advantage of this expansion. When I graduated and started working, thinking about making money and improving my life based on my own abilities, the wind stopped and turned into a headwind. Of course, this is not the worst. When I first entered college, a college diploma seemed to be the same thing. When I graduated, an undergraduate diploma was equivalent to a national diploma. * * The fiat currency in the late period was a devastating blow to my fragile values. Perhaps it was from that time that pessimism and despair about the future began to grow and spread crazily in my heart. I remember when I was in school, I had unrealistic fantasies all day long. I thought that as long as I learned more knowledge and learned various courses well, I would find a good job when I graduated, earn a lot of money, and make my life decent and fulfilling, and even make myself proud. I imagined everything so beautiful, so good that everything seemed to fall into place and fall into place. But now it seems that I was really naive to the point of stupidity. I was at the bottom of this society. How could it be so easy to climb up? Of course, at that time, it was difficult for a child who had never experienced the world and only immersed himself in reading to think of this level. Moreover, the most terrible problem was that I chose the wrong path. Only now have I discovered that the chemical industry cannot quickly change the predicament of my life. This is not an industry where you can get rich quickly. On the contrary, if you are not careful, you can easily become a coolie, earning a meager salary but sweating endlessly in a dangerous environment. Even at this critical juncture of economic and social transformation, those of us who are engaged in this industry have to suffer the pain of transformation and face the fate of being eliminated just like this industry. Sometimes when I look at the success of the Internet and financial industries, I feel extremely envious. I also think about it when I toss and turn at night, if I had chosen them at the beginning, would my current situation not be so bad? I think "if" should be God's biggest punishment for a loser. But if there is really a "if", I should still go to this step, because I have no choice. This is the sadness of a poor person. What is destiny? Those things that you cannot change even if you can start your life over again are called destiny. After entering social work, I gradually understood that the world is not what I thought it was, and that you can’t win everything just because you have excellent skills. ； It doesn’t mean that you don’t want to scheming, so you can stay out of it and concentrate on doing your own thing. Over the years of working, traveling around and changing jobs frequently, this is further confirmed. Where there are people, there are rivers and lakes. When people are in the rivers and lakes, they have to face those invisible swords and swords. It seems that every morning when I come to the company, I am like an animal waking up on the African savannah, running for life, or chasing and hunting. It’s just that my character has always been withdrawn and arrogant, coupled with my lack of understanding of human nature and lack of discipline in my behavior, I am destined not to survive long in this cruel competition. Therefore, every career journey is so short, until now I have been forced into a situation where I can't advance or retreat. In these years, I have been doing the lowest-end jobs, drawing pictures, and doing experiments, which are far different from what I originally imagined. After all, work is not an academic discussion. It does not require those profound theories or obscure and difficult formula calculations. It is more about simple and direct repetition and hard work. It seems that even the rules can be ignored and only need to be compromised. Looking at those people who play well, are flexible in dealing with things, have both sides, are proud of themselves in the company, and are appreciated by their leaders, this is exactly what I originally expected to achieve, but it does not seem to be the result of relying on any professional skills. Sometimes I ask myself, can you not do it, don’t have the ability to do things, or do you disdain to do it this way? Maybe I just can't do it, I just don't have the ability. After all, I am a rigid and stubborn elm-headed person. I never make changes, but always go to the dark side. Over the years, when I see those low-price competitions or even illegal operations, I always feel disgusted in my heart. I always complain about why reality and ideals are so incompatible. The efficient and green things I learned in book classes seem to have become nonsense when it comes to making money. But sometimes you feel funny, you can't stand in this predicament, why do you want to ask for those frivolous things? Over the years, I have wandered around the world, wandering around, desperate to change the predicament of my life in one fell swoop, even to the point of risking my own life. However, if you act too hastily, you will inevitably go crazy. After all, you are too young and too impatient to change your life. On the contrary, haste over haste is counterproductive. ； Having too high expectations for oneself leads to discouragement and frustration ； Misunderstandings about the chemical industry cannot be accumulated calmly, resulting in nothing and being at a loss as to what to do. Of course, I don’t have to regret it now. No one will give me advice on these things. Even if there is, I may not pay attention to it and understand and follow it. After all, I am a conceited person. I am afraid that I will only seriously reflect and understand when I encounter disgrace in reality. Although it is too late, in life, for this one-way journey, you have to pay a corresponding price in exchange for the opportunity to try. I once imagined that what was waiting for me was poetry and the distance, but in the end, all I was left with was the carelessness of life. This was a joke. Life between heaven and earth is suddenly like a traveler from afar. I like this sentence very much. I wonder what the person who wrote this poem went through to have such a state of mind. This activity should have been more technical, but the result was that it went off the rails as soon as I wrote it, and I was so arrogant that my words were meaningless. My temper was really hopeless. Come to think of it, the only thing that attracts you to participate in this event is telling your story in one sentence. A long time ago, I saw Yuchi's joke on a Phoenix TV talk show, saying that the CIA caught a terrorist and used various methods, but they just couldn't do it. Later, a female reporter asked her to give it a try. She went to the prison to do an interview show with the terrorist, and the terrorist confessed everything happily. Yuchi joked that torture would no longer be necessary in our country. Let Chen Luyu go in and have a chat, and he would know everything. Tell your story, everyone wants to be interviewed. I saw this sentence again today and suddenly laughed. A joke from many years ago is still fresh in my memory. Telling your story, I really can't help it.